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It was a guess dammit. i clouldn't think of any other logical reason. Have it your way then. Thought u listened.

Just lose it.

Unfortunately, i did appreciated it.
I cherished every bit of it.
But apparently the other didn't.
It is finished.
I didn't make the decision to finish it.
Strong feelings that things wld not work out was the reason.
Comprehension of that, is still beyond me.
How would you know?
How would i know?
Faithless. Given up.
These words recides in my head.

3 times I was thrown.
Like the three times Peter denied Jesus.
Devastated but still hopeful.
Ever so hopeful.

Even so, if the prodigal one would return,
what am I to do?
Welcome with open arms?
Shunt away?
Or welcome yet controlled.
After being denied 3 times.

Let's just hope "Peter" realises the cock has already crowed.
Forgiveness has already been given.

Strength and calmity is something i rarely lack.
However this time, it seems i'm insuffcient.
Acceptance is my only way.
Faith and Hope is my only motivation.

The day of 5th May 2006, Friday

Sch supposed to start at 8. i woked up 7.30.. and took my time to pack up and leave.. i reached the bus stop at 7.45. There was a bloody jam at adam road.. so, i reached sch at 9.15... great eh? then.. sch was ok.. was playing warcraft during tutorial...

After sch... went down tot own to meet cheryl mah and rachel er... first we went to far east to eat chicken rice... and i had 2 plates... then we went to eat at cartel at cineleisure.. we ate some bread before our desserts came.. haha, rachel doesn't know how to cut bread for nuts. i had choc pradise... $7.20... then we cheryl went to cut her hair at far east... rachel was being childish... haha.. she hit me all of a sudden, for nothing. and said told me not to be childish when i hit her back. and she said the same thing while hitting me countless of times.

then after all that i went too eat tori Q.. and cheryl had her long cheesy, juicy hot dog.

went to bishan swensens... had a waffle dream and some baked rice... man... i really spurlged my money on food that day man... if i continue eating like that i'll prob start to grow fat...

THE END. HAHA!
- My pleasure. You're welcome. Really, anytime, anwhere.

Confused says: Never ever bite your nails.

Reasoning: next time when u die and u go to where ever u're supposed to go, your nails will grow big and bite you back.

The day of 1st May 2006, Monday

I woke up at 7.45, knowing i'm early.. cos rachel was supposed to call me at 8 to wake me up. those bums were late... jamie woke up at 8.15... for your info, they're all supposed to be at my place at 8.30... mukudus... joanne and rachel were at my place first, looking through photos of me when i was young... cute eh? haha.. shut up... ppl change during puberty! dumbass... i bet they can't get the picture of me in P6 out of their heads... oval specs, buck teeth, bowl-shaped hairstyle...

then came jamie...

then they studied...

then came greg, marilyn and raymond...
(just to let YA'LL know, marilyn and finds me better looking than my bro. HA! SEE!)(Nvm, i know HAHA!)

(I'm not sure when joshua came)...

More studying...

THEN CAME LUNCH... ding dongs, ate up all the food... leaving a few pieces of water melon.. but nvm that's alright...

then gareth came

the studying again.

THEN!!!! BADMINTON! WOW!!! shut up, bird toe.

haha... we all had fun making a fool out of jamie didn't we?Kidding. haha... I tell u marilyn is one girl who can hit it cock hard man. shut up. u know what it's supposed to mean.. stop thinking dirty! then it began to rain.. we stop for a while, then jamie and i decided to play in the rain. got wet.. duh. that's when the tides turned... i couldn't look up at the shuttle cock cos of the raindrops falling into my eye... however she wasn't affected by it... Probably cos of the ferquent pokes in her eyes she gives herself unintentionally... so she maybe quite used to it already...HAHA... when we got too wet we decided to go back up to play risk.

Then marilyn went

WE DREW at risk... cos we had to go study.. So i'm still the best! with 2 consecutive wins!

then jamie went...

then we went for dinner at some place near rachel's place.

after dinner sent the rest to the bus stop.. then went to 7-11 to buy moochi with rachel. ate at residents' corner... ended up laughing at nothing again... until she almost peed in her pants...

yup.. had alot of fun man... haha.. the girls were panicking bout their exams. hey, don't worry ya'll... you'll do fine.

yah i need someone to help me get a tagboard by the way.

Confused says:
when angry, do not use common vulgar words. instead use different words like peacock clay.

Reasoning: Be original. common words are used also when u're not feeling angry... express your agner through better words.. here's more examples:

plastic shit
duck disc
tissue brain
electronic wood
apple eyelashes
grizzly's genitels
etc...

It's been awhile

Yeah, i know... didn't post for a damn long time... actually i was thinking of stopping. cos u know when i post bout sth, the expilcity level wld be a lil' high for u ppl.. so i was being considerate... But now i'm a good boy...HAHA

ok... yeah Poly's been fun... There's like only one girl in my class and she's like a 3/10. honest not being mean or what.... so, she's she ain't that prtty all the guys just don't give a shit bout her... the only person that talks to her is this other malaysian guy who also speaks quite broken english who talks to her... it's fun... man, it's like being in a boy sch for 13 years...
For eveyone's info, ystd was Ben & Jerry's free cone day... For hose who didn't know, u ppl just missed a frre Ben &a Jerry's ice-cream... how wasted... haha anyway didn't get one too... i sacrifieced my Ben & Jerry's just to go down to Jamie's place so that i can spend the most time with them :- Jamie, Rachel, Joanne. Ya'll should be honoured... really honoured... Me, Terence, The greatest, smartest, most intellectual, sexy, hot, cool... okok... i was saying, i ,terence, sacrificed one of my favourite food just to spend more time with ya'll... Say, i'm nice come on...

actually i've got much more to say but i'm just lazy... yeah

Confused says: You shld give all your money to the poor...

Reasoning: There's this paticular person called Terence Chua... he is a poor poor man... he needes that money more than you do... he needs to eat, clothe himslef, bathe... etc... be obedient and give him all your money.

marilyn manson

Satanist sucks shit lah... bunch of bullcrap losers who got nothing better to do... idiots no lives... especially marilyn manson.. stupid bastard. dumb maggot shit crap... think you so cool... wah so cool so cool, i got against God.. go scew animals lah, sad cases... ppl who actually listen to marilyn manson are plainly no lifes who just think that their life sucks and there's no point for them to live... sad cases... can't think for shit. Satanic ppl are just some big time posers who think they can scare ppl cos they dare to go against God... That they're some big gangster all that don't give a shit even if they end up in jail... i despise ppl like that.. Utterly despise... they've got no right to even exist... dumb boners... u think i'm scared of ur bullcrap... huh, come on.. what u wanna curse me or sth? Screw off lah, useless turn offs. u wanna pick a fight... come on... shitheads... useless bunch of dropouts. u ppl dun even have the guts to confront me.

CNY

Today is the Lunar new Year! so that means... Confused originated from.. China... Where everyone there is a confused piece of iguana poo from vietnam... betcha confused... but once again.. i didn't do anything stupid today. SO, i will write another poem... HAHA about Thipak...

Thipak, thipak thipak,
The worst guy to ****.
When it was all dark,
he took a walk to he park.
He ended up humping a duck.

You may think for yourself,
Animal with himself?
But no,
he did it too in prison cells...

HAHA! THE END!

yeah it's kinda short.... i've got no mood to think of much crap anymore... it's late... that bring s u to the next part...

Cofused says: don't ever try sucking your toe when you're wearing shoes.

Reasoning: Firstly it's bloody disgusting to suck your toe especially when there's toe jam and there's dirt under your toenails... Secondly you won't be able to suck your toe when you're wearing shoes u banana nosehair.